my mind is all over the place. i can’t concentrate on one thing. i blame these emotions. they should just go away. they’re useless and detrimental. 

i can count the number of people i talk to on a regular basis on one hand. 

i don’t even need my thumb. 

i miss people. i hate getting by without seeing them. i feel isolated. or rather, i am isolated. what i wanted was to stay focused- recognize what i want and act upon that desire. but i’ve become too distant. we’ve lost touch and i don’t want that to happen.